To you, from me.

I wrote this for my cousin who passed away on the 15/06/10 but in the view of his younger sister.

From when I was a child
Till I was a grown woman
From when I didn't understand
Till the time I understood more than I should

You were always there when I fell down
You were always there to say well done
You were always there to be a big brother
You were always there to be a good son.

The memories I have of you
Will remain
The memories I don't have of you
Won't matter

The people you love will not forget you
The people you love will celebrate your life
The people you love will forever love you.

I can only imagine what your mother feels
The pain of losing a child, what an ordeal
Remembering that you were once just a baby in her arms
Remembering the joy of bringing your little soul into the world

As the months went by, you were in pain
We must therefore remember that
We must therefore appreciate this tragedy
For the Lord knew, the pain
For the Lord knew you couldn't go on

We can only praise the Lord
We can only get on our knees
As the answers to our questions
The answers to our sadness
Are known only by Him

There shall come a time
Where we can release that bundle
Release those questions
Ask the Maker,the Giver of life
Why He let you be taken away.

'I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart'*


*quote from poem by Edward Estlin Cummings

FatBlackMidget.©

Thought 2: Friend or foe ?

Over the last decade of my life, i have come to the conlusion that i dont think i shall ever ever really honestly honestly know what a friend truly truly is!
Might seem like a strange notion to those(if any) who come across this.

....or Are They....

As I have travelled from different place, I have seen that there are some people who you shall ALWAYS have in your life. Then there are some who are there for different purposes, they dont last as long.

"At times we prefer to stay close to those who push us away the most"

You may be thinking....surely if someone is pushing me away...you would stay away right. But it seems that the good friends that are always there for us, the ones we use when we need them. Well we either dont realise that those are the true friends or when we do realise...well its not late but its not exatcly useful.

"friends are like the seasons. each season brings something new and diffeent. somr seasons you will like. some you wont. some you will want when they are not there. some you wish they didnt bother altogether"

Throughout my 'seasons' of friends i have found that in my life I have different friends. Most i can honestly say i love. Some i can trust. Hardly any i can truly talk my thoughts with....
More of my expriences with friends on later posts ;)

FatBlackMidget.©

Thought 1 intro: My first time

Wellll! Don't reallly know how to start this except...this is my first blog ever!! I feel quite proud to have lost my blog virginity as I have been ready for it for aaaaages!
Anywaaays not really sure whose gonna read this or whose actually gonna care buuut these blogs just gonna be evrything..stories poems songss ABOSULTLY anything off th top of my head!
I hope at least one person reads my blog and who knows it may change their liife!!


Okaaay I'm gonna start with the reasons why I'm given my blog virginity.
Besides being ready to of course.


I looooove writing..always have..always will!
I like the thought of pple knowing what's in my head also, but you seee..until now I've never had time to do anything let alone blog
I promised my year 9 teacher I'd finish a book I started and yeaaars on from, still haven't done much..:/
But yeah I've got a lot of free time lately and it dawned to me to start this!So here goes nothiiiinnng!! Hope you liikey :D

Lots of heaaart^^


FatBlackMidget.©
I am NOT however looking for attention or anything stupid like that when i write personal stuff. I dont believe anything stay hidden for long, so why hide my feelings, they going to come out one way or another, may as well be on a blog where i harm noone :)