Thought 20: Patience vs What Else

"I don't know what it is about me that kinda chases people away. Everyone says imma nice guy but yet they don't seem to ever wanna stay. Empty words that fall on deaf ears cos I've heard it all before, skip the bull**** flex and just tell me the effing score. Say what's on your mind rather than beating the bush as if to find some long forgotten treasure too huge to measure but worth enough to cause your very large scale procrastination. Suffocation is the outcome. Of my thoughts, feelings, behaviour. 

The thing is, the choice here isn't clear cut. Stop waiting and you may have lost something spesh but waiting around seemingly without progress jus makes you feel like a d***head. Its like that loading bar is at a standstill., buffering indefinitely like its connected through Sky broadband.All I need is patience. Or is it? Patience, patience is overrated. It can drive you insane. Being patient is like being tied down with chains, growing pains and emotional plane crashes, waiting to be saved, to be released, hoping this seeming infinite standstill of time will cease. 

What makes it worse is the nature of what you're waiting for. The effects of patience varies, waiting for the toilet is a minor and doesn't require much emotional power. Unless you have a weak bladder, in which case you better find a rope or ladder and get into that bathroom. Wating for a heart to transplant into you in order for you to survive, now that requires emotional strength, not to mention the length, of time for something so delicate to fall through. One of the top emotional waits though would be waiting for that one word answer from that one special person. That yes or no, yes i'll have your kids, yes i'll marry you, yes i'll move in with you. Yes i'll be your girlfriend.... Boy thats a killer.

 Tbh though i don't think patience plays a part here. Its simply about your emotion, measure of worth. Are your emotions as big and strong as the oceans or as thin and volatile as lotion? How long can it help you hold out for? Slow motion, also known as bullet time, is what occurs when you're being patient. Every second, is like 10 minutes have gone by. 

I'm talking too much. The moral of the story is, don't wait forever. No one is worth that. And I don't recommend you test that theory out cos there are no second chances. "

By Chiedozie Ekeoma

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Patience...

What is it about it that makes want to know, to be in the know.?

What is it about waiting that we just cant grasp?

It mixes with our emotions. Plays with nerves.

Is it the 21st century notion that everything must be instant

That we forget that there are things that are worth waiting for.

What do you loose when you wait.

Wait for that anticipated answer.

Yes.

No.

Is it the hope that it is the answer that we hope for

That we want it so eagerly

That we forget. It might disappoint us. 

But then again.

Why cant we know what we want to know now.

Why cant people tell you answers as soon as you ask the question.

Because what is there to think about

Its ether yes or no.

Patience...who has the time to have it?

JustPreen(c)