Sometimes I just wish everything stayed the same. I mean I don't mind change, change is good. Well sometimes. But I always feel like what you are used to should like stay the same kind of thing. Like when you move to a new place. Meet new people. Nice people. I always feel like why can't all my old friends meet my new friends and then I wouldn't feel like I am replacing people.
Ok that's all very confusing I know.
But you see, I've just moved somewhere very new. Very different lifestyle. Scary lifestyle. By myself for the first time. Without mum. Or dad. Or anyone familiar. Not even an annoying little borther or sister. I have never felt so 'alone in a room full of people' kindah thing like I am now.
I am with my girl who I honestly love to bits, but she doesnt know me like people back at home do.
I know there is a time that you have to move on, start afresh...I mean I'm the queen of fresh starts, everytime everything goes wrong, I'm always like "I'm going to start afresh"..but this time..its real...its my life now...its in my hands..
My friends...I feel like I'm neglecting them and they me...not intended I'm sure but that's the way it is.. yeah I know, I have new friends, I am in a new place...I should be happy...this is my sort of situation...
Yet I can't help but feel like this..like everyone is already a distant memory..as if they were in another time, and not in this lifetime.
I hate it. I really do.
I always want people to know that I care about them. Always.
But I feel like that is about to change..
I feel like a whole new life is about to start.
A whole new me.
I should be excited.
But I'm not.
I don't want to forget people.
It's just not me.
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